

This photo may not be any good on it’s own, it probably doesn’t tell a story, and I highly doubt it would mean anything to a stranger. But to me, it’s the best of the bunch. This is the last photo that I will ever take of my Dad, and in this photo, his hand is still warm.
This post is hard. The most difficult one yet.
My Dad was taken off life support today (by our choice), and shortly thereafter, passed away. There was no suffering, no pain, and I feel such immense relief that he is finally at peace. It’s been over a year of horrible pain for him, and today, it’s finally over. There is beauty in that. I’m not going into more detail here, this isn’t the place. What’s important to know is that he did not die alone and that he was very comfortable when he did.
I had always thought that my Dad would see the end of this Project 365, but I guess it was never meant to be. I am OK with this, but it sure makes me sad all the same. Whenever I enter a hospital, a Ben Gibbard song plays softly in the back of my head. I can’t tell you how many times it has happened this week. The last few verses are what stand out for me.
“But I’m thinking of what Sarah said, that love is watching someone die”
If you know the song, you will know exactly how I feel. The song ends with “So who’s going to watch you die?” I feel blessed to have been able to hold my Dad’s hand, in the presence of of my brother, Mom and God when he died. We stood around him, comforted him, cried together, and read from the bible.
What makes this so much easier is knowing that there are no regrets or hard feelings between my Dad and I. We were friends, good friends, and we both knew it. The last time I saw him outside of the hospital was at my house. He had given me a high five and a big smile. That is how I will remember him.
If you are reading this and feel moved in some way, please leave a comment below and show your support. Say anything. Tell a whole story. Heck, try to make this blog crash! My Dad would read this blog every night and I know that he would have gotten a kick from knowing how many different people he has touched.
Thank you.
See you tomorrow, with another photo. A happier one I think.
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